Yesterday's gift was today's history and future's memories

2011-04-02T07:35:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, things are just so complicated. Or rather, people like to confuse themselves. Since you don't give me the love, attention etc I need, perhaps you should let me go and let someone else to do so. Although you don't like to go out, but that doesn't became a reason why I could get restricted from doing so. Since you don't want to bring me out, give me freedom, I can always find someone else to do what you couldn't. Cause it ain't fair to me. I've never ever thought of leaving you, never ever thought that family ain't my top priority. You're purely biased, simply picking on me. Tsk!

2011-03-21T08:09:00.001-07:00

A week of holiday is definitely not enough for me. However, the time wouldn't wait for me, the world still goes on without my existance...

Term 1's holiday ain't too bad (; Pretty packed. My apologies to few Guzheng friends as I couldn't turn up during our date. As mentioned, I went back school for lessons and practices. Disappointed as many failed to turn up for the Guzheng practices. Drop this(:

On a random afternoon, met my importants ones at E!hub. Woots walked there instead of taking a bus as I can't recognise the route! Wahahahah. Spend most of the time at arcade, friends insisted on waiting for my dear :D Yay-ness, went to the beach. Love them to the max, especially my darling ♥ Hmm seriously speaking, I've got nothing much to share about this. Due to the jealousy I sense, I insisted that I have to talk about it. Kees.

Sadly, the school resumes in no time. It's 3.30pm's nightmare once again! Hell to me, cannot meet my ♥. Couldn't text much due to the bad results (shown) during Common Test 1. Starting his poly soon, travelling to Malaysia again! Like whatthetoot only... Miss him like hell, I BET. Not to get distracted. I really have to work on my assignments etc already. No joke, running out of time!

Hereby hoping that I'll concentrate on my studies, and achieve excellent results. Pass is never enough. I'm human, therefore a greedy creature that could not be satisfied. Stop taking noon nap, dear will be fine in Malaysia and when he enters into the poly. Hopefully he doesn't neglects me. Lastly, this is very important. Not to be affected by negative comments etc (:

Packed week, disastrous happenings.

2011-03-15T18:26:00.000-07:00

Ha. Wanted to give my blog a new look. Having a second thought, decided not to. Having my 1 week holiday, glad that there isn't any English homework. If Mrs Tan were to give, I think we'll all be dead! Had quite a few homework uncompleted, don't feel like doing it. Tsk. 1 week of holiday, 5 weekdays, 3 school visiting days. Sounds a bit yucky.

Speech Day is approaching, I don't feel good. Dang! God bless, I'm still living well in my team. However, have to practice more(: Today's the second day without you, third or rather last day of school visiting during my holiday. Everyone's asking me for a date out yet I have that tuuupid Guzheng. Damn upset. Stayed home for the whole Wednesday morning, acting like I've got no life and ate 'Yanyan' for my breakfast. Craving for delicious food ): I think if you were here with me, you would buy me something nice... Sad life.

I hereby wishing the Japanese especially my dear friends who's at Japan right now would live well. God bless!!

2011-03-06T00:13:00.000-08:00

有时后，我真的不懂自己在想些什么。是我想太多了吗？我希望答案是‘是’因为我知道自己没这个能力去接受。在这一年来，我以变得坚强多了。但是你改变了一切，将我变成个脆弱的女人，把我打回圆形。我真的希望你能准守诺言，别让我哭泣！如果连你都把我丢弃，我真的不懂我会怎样。虽然我们不是很了解对方，但是我真的看到你为了我的变化。我知道一向来都是自己想太多。但哪个人不会了？不管怎样，我还是很爱你（：因为有了你，生活才像彩虹一样的美丽！我想告诉你我和你斗嘴不是想怎样。只是想知道你在想什么。虽然我要的解释还未听你说，但是我能理解也不会强求（：此时此刻，我也不想知道了。。。

2011-03-03T03:11:00.000-08:00

Yay my blog seems to be like in a mess! Have no idea why but looks messy and idiotic to me -.- Never mind nobody's gonna see it HAHAHAHA.

Recently, I'm invovled with internationalisation programme. It's with Japanese students from Koishikawa Secondary Education School. Was afraid that I might not do well, but it turns out well! Yea, kind of great and missing them. Did not had the opportunity to send them off, but it's alright. Hope that we'll be able to bump into each other again!

And here it comes to school life. It doesn't sucks you know but it's just far too tiring. I hope I doesn't collapse and I'll be able to do real well. I hope to acheive what I want, don't disappoint those whom pin high hopes on me. Although I had not done well for my common test, but I'm sure it'll be better the next round with my efforts placed in. Must study hard, play lesser. I must see improvements during the mid year!

AND AND here comes my favourite part(: As you can see, you're not going anywhere without my companion! I'm not letting you go. I love to be your burden and I want you to take care of me forever. Hahahah. Sometimes it hurts you. sometimes it hurts me. But through this way, we are stronger!

Loves .

2011-02-25T23:50:00.000-08:00

I hope you'll see this post. But at the same time, I don't wish either. Contradicting huh? I don't know. Maybe I'm purely too sensitive. But which girls like it? IF both me and her were waiting to be rescued in the sea, without having any general knowledge of surving skills nor know how to swim, who will you rescue first?

2011-02-17T04:58:00.001-08:00

Have the urge to blog. No, it was actually because my hand very itchy, wanna type type type!! So INTO computer right now due to the baby contest votes as my nephew is participating... Kill me. Okay proper update if I have the time. So much to talk about ): So many assignments to be done today. English essay(i sucks), math TYS and common test paper 1 practice(math rocks, algebra best), etc etc... KIL ME~ Confirm cannot finish in time. DEAD

2011-02-12T23:05:00.000-08:00

12 February, longest day of all. Lessons in the morning as per normal, out for lunch and went back for Guzheng. Was suppose to end at 6pm but went off at 5pm due to English extra lessons. Straight after english, went to school hall for meet-the-parent-session. Although my parents did not attend, but that doesn't became an excuse for me to skip it. Attendance are compulsary(: Went home around 10pm, the highest record I had for the time being. Madness or what?

Decided to study real hard since I've tender my resignation already. JIAYOU~!
Thanks Mr EL for helping me... Best of the best!
Nevertheless, I should also give my best for upcoming SYF no matter what's happening, what happened, and what's going to happen... (:

2011-02-01T08:06:00.000-08:00

Two more days to Chinese New Year. Okay but don't presume that I'm being excited over it. I'm just looking forward to the food and okay definitely I want to get money. Everyone bought their new clothes etc already, I'm the only one hadn't done any real shopping. Whatever! It's okay I've bought new clothes recently so I could just wear it. That's not my main point. Main point is that I've fall sick I suppose. Firstly, aching everywhere, having slight fever I think... And just not feeling well la! Especially kept on having tons of lessons and work, everything is adding on to my burden! Last day of work tomorrow, sort of having mixed feeling. Aiya whatever! I don't know what I'm typing at all! Giddy...

2011-01-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

Jump for joy when Mrs Tan, my english teacher didn't come to school. Just being a little too stress whenever I attend english lessons. Have no idea why so don't bother to ask me.

Every now and then, I'm like very standard, stress. As in there's tons of work to be done yet I've got not enough time to complete each assignments in time or rather no time for extra revision. I yearn for more time, definitely! As my close friends understands, I don't really like 3.30 this timing and definitely I do not like to go home especially when school's released on 3.30. That's because everytime I thought of completing my work at home, something would definitely disrupt me which is my mom. She kept on asking me for help, later take care nephew, later this later that. I felt so fucked up especially not because I don't wish to help but it's that where could I find so much time to help her when I haven't finish my works right?!
O's is definitely the most important thing in my life right now. I can't afford to fail it. If I could ignore the grades, then I would might as well go ITE already. I don't mean that ITE isn't good but just why would I want to waste a year at secondary school yet landing in ITE again which I might get a more lousy place as compared if I enter using my N's results right?... Totally absurb! Not only that. Currently, I'm trying to manage my time. Work, study, SYF etc etc. WA! THIS IS MAKING ME MAD :S

2011-01-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

I hate it when I'm so serious about asking a question, and yet what I've got was being ignored. It tooks up my time, used up that portion of my brain to think about it and yet I got nothing in return. Sounds so silly and idiotic! Whatever ass. Everytime, I would want to say school's pretty fine. But having a second thought, how fine could it be? I've got not enough time to finish my assignments and extra revision. Worst of all is dnt. I can't imagine the days like what I've had in N's last year are searching back for me once again. Sometimes, I'm too stress that leads me to hallucinate. I always self-reflects whenever I calmed down, or have the peace time to enjoy mental reflections. And recently, I started to think of having April intake for the ITE one. Outsiders might just thinks that I've yet to try, and already gave up the battle. But the inside stories, they'll never understand.

Endless of works to be done ):

2011-01-17T07:55:00.000-08:00

Disaster, I swear. Work while having your O's ain't something great. I bet you've got no time for your studies and that's what I'm experiencing right now. Thanks to someone so I don't even know when I'll be able to terminate my job. I seriously needs more time for my studies, I'm not a genius who could really do anything at the very last minute. DNT, nothing done at all. Come on Shuyee! Look how much people had done, and look how much you've cover. Just wake the freaking mind of yours :@ Well, I'll really need to work extremely hard and pass my O's exceeding well! (:

New Year's coming, any idea of how to spend your red packets money already?
Bought your outfit etc already?
Laughs. I'm always the one whom doesn't cares about NEW outfit!
Everyone seems to thinks that new year must wear new clothes. No offence, I swear! Just a penny of my thoughts.
Can't wait for New Year, and that means I'll receive my pay :D
29th of Jan is coming, tmd seems to be so fast.

2011-01-10T06:30:00.000-08:00

All this while, you didn't know what I'm trying to do because you didn't even understand me. Or should I say it's always been a coincidence that you didn't see what you should see and saw what you shouldn't. I'm already tired~!

2011-01-05T04:54:00.001-08:00

Was suppose to do some of my "work", but I have no idea why there's so many people talking to me! I'm not trying to boast around. I'm so concentrative, yet there's some things that ruined my mood like seriously! Heard that Esther had quit, I felt so lonely! I'm sort of missing her but I'm not lesbian okay -.- Going to NYP tomorrow, sort of looking forward... I'm seriously quiting my job real soon but I'm afraid it'll look so awkward if I still shop there. Drop this aside for the moment, not in the good mood.

Felt like crying. There's always a reason behind it so stop those guessing of yours. Seriously upset. I don't understand why I'd always met such peoples. They're hurting me over and over again, like this is an integral part of their plot. I felt like crying but most probably leaving for the bedtime! School hours are super long, I couldn't stop thinking of breaks. It's probably time for me to take good rest in the night, sleep earlier than before...
Cause you didn't know you're hurting me.
To an extend that I really wish to end my life.

2011-01-04T07:57:00.000-08:00

First day of school without Theresa...
Find everything's so weird. Have no idea why! Seems so funny with small classes. Although Sa's not with me, but I suppose I'm still able to cope with it(: So that was a piece of good news I suppose. Can't wait to meet her up and catch up with each other. Shall tbc and tell her those regular stories -.-
Get back to school, got split class in english. I find that teacher not bad and what's more, having test tomorrow! Mini-test, hope I'm able to score it. Find it so scary and under-stress! New DNT teacher, Mr Ong. I personally thinks that he likes self-introductions and story tellings a lot! School ends at 3.30pm almost everyday, I think I'm gonna die soon and I'll became a dead log in no time.
Anyway, additional updates. Got my pay and seems to be so little ): Lesser than the last month. What's more, I felt soooo broke although I just got pay. No idea why! Must start saving a lot of money for assessment books already ): Anyway, going to quit my job soon. If not I'll be real died. Oh ya! In case no one notices. Isn't it freaking damn god obvious that I've got my hair cut as in not only fringe la! Seriously very short le lor. Felt so upset ):

2011-01-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

So, it's a brand new year, a brand new starting. In the traditional views, first day were always important. It relates to the whole year. And mine was like, shit! They made me so angry :S No, not my family(: So I've decided, after earning that $1.80 per hour, I will quit my job. Cause it's really horrible facing those ridiculous and unreasonable customers/colleagues etc. Honestly speaking, I hide inside the toilet and cried like within this week and it's like two times!! I don't find it worth wasting my tears... Not forgetting those blood that I sacrifices. Really angry... So I would just remember my wonderful friends that I met there and place them in my heart.

2010-12-29T06:45:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time since I last blog...
Wanted to upload some pictures to make this post more wonderful, but really troublesome! So shall leave this post with words instead.

Went out with Ver like weeks ago. Tried an outfit at Velocity's Cotton On, I really like a lot. Too expensive so bought another top instead. Took pictures and headed to Orchard. Bought nothing there. Couldn't remember much already. Just remember I ate 6 Takopachi balls that day... Super fab, shall get it another day. So extraordinary(: And also, went to the don't know where de shopping mall.

Christmas. Went to E!hub in the morning for Seoul garden's breakfast with family. Fantastic! Ate for quite a few hours and I'm still not full -.- I had to admit I do have a huge appetite. Headed to Best Denki for electrical fan, meant to be christmas present for mom? Ya and so I was just simply looking through the laptops. How would I know that I would be so compulsive. Without much thoughts, I just bought HP's laptop. Wanted ASUS brand/VAIO but changed my mind in the end... I've started to change. If you were to know, I don't spend so much and consider for one whole day just to buy for one small little thing. Now? Sigh... Headed to a pinch of salt at Ang Moh Kio in the night for cousin's birthday, nothing else.

Oh~ Went to popular and saw one sort of like story book de book. Wanted to buy it, but still considering if I should. Saw quite a few assesment books, haven't bought it but tempted. Shall ask for confirmations for those books before I purchase it(:

This month, spend a lot! Dad's Picard wallet, mom's electric fan, my coach wristlet, second uncle's birthday spendings and more! Freaked.

2010-12-18T08:04:00.001-08:00

This would be the most recent shortest post ever!

I'll be back soon, stay in tune(:

2010-12-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

If you were to know me well, I'm very bored right now! Grr. Trying to talk craps at my blog again, like very standard. Nothing better to do.

Tuesday is always horrible due to work. But today was pretty fine! No unreasonable elders exclude one mister. The computer had some technical problem which is like how would I know what's happening to it and I don't get it why must him attitude me when it's not even my fault or problem. I'm not the one holding him but the computer!! Shit him -.- Okay whatever. Hmm, so Wei Liang came today. And he was like paying money at my counter and there he goes: "Relax! Don't so fast. I'm not in a rush" when it's like him the one who said faster lor. And I dare to admit that I'm not fast at all la! Craps. Okay whatever.

Was killing my time as I'm waiting for the 11'30pm show! While I know I should get more rest but I just couldn't! Working morning shift tomorrow, it's like hell to me. But it's okay, time pass faster in the morning. Hey! Did I mention that results will be out at this Friday 2'30pm? I'm like so high ah! Seriously mixed feelings... I'm very afraid that I'll not do well ): Seriously afraid. I really need some blessings.

Okay boring. Shall get my computer shut and off for my TV programme. Teehees. Shall get some pictures and blog about it one day. Or else my blog looks like piece of shit! NEX it next day! Can't wait for Friday to meet my darlings. Meet before the release of results, get an ideal result and OUT-WE-GO after knowing it :D

2010-12-13T03:47:00.001-08:00

Pretty bored. I'm so gonna blog and go for my dinner before I get scoldings. Work today was fine. Wondering why I'm so free to online today? Nah, it's actually because my work ends at 5 today which was suppose to end at 6. Okay whatever. Out of random, I remembered there's some day a few customers lined up at my counter and they praised me. Oh god you just can't imagine how elated I was. And today, my colleague kept on saying that I'm very fast like superwoman. And there I went LOL! I was like laughing and my mind was blank -.- Okay whatever. There's this girl name Esther whom's same age as me and work for NTUC. She was pretty random to ask my name. She told me that she shares the same name as me! I mean her chinese name. I was like wth that's so coincident la! I'm getting insane @_@. Yesterday, I was at counter 4 and Wei Liang was counter 3. That means just beside each other. Work with him equals to stress. He like robot like that super fast, made me so panicked. Gosh-ed. Okay bye! Lame craps -.-

Come on. When's the release of results?

News please hurry report la!! Ass-ed.

2010-12-11T22:44:00.000-08:00

Oh~ Okay I hate to blog the starting part. Don't know what to put everytime -.-

Two days ago, went to pay ahma respect and headed to NEX shopping mall. Cab there free :D Whoa! Spend a lot that day. I think it's like around S$70? As you can see, I'm not a compulsive shopper yet spend so much means there's really quite a lot to buy... Bought dresses and shoe. Super love la!! Ok gone crazy. Too bad, left one more floor didn't shop I think. Headed to Giant by cab again. Free also(: HAHA! You can't imagine I saw one dress over there which I like a lot! Seriously nice. But too bad the dress isn't done perfectly so I dropped the idea of buying it ): Never mind shall go street shop one day and see if I can find it. Hmm, why isn't the news reporting about the N levels result? I'm so nervous la! So is it this Friday? What time? Grr :@

Oh yea! Enough of two days ago already. Talk so much about that day -.- Had long working hours yesterday, ah ver came to find me! Omg I was so shocked and surprise la!! Super happy~ Had dinner together during my break time. So happy eh, like a small kid :P Not long later, work resumes and I broke eggs! OH GOSH totally shocked and ewww super sticky. Okay don't wanna talk about all this cause it's like super omg can't face the facts. But Ver and I was shocked that my colleague got scolded for nothing. That customer is seriously unreasonable! Another one that I met was super great!! He bought 10 tins of small milk powder and another few items and the subtotal for his groceries was S$253++. Super shocked and Ver gave me that funny face that made me wanna burst out of laughter.

And oh! I did a good deed that day. Was inside the fitting room at Giant and saw one handphone pouch. I was so nice to ask my mom to look around for the owner until a auntie and her daughter came forward to claim it. But they was seriously attitude I suppose. We were so kind to give her back yet she was a bit attitude when my mom just wanted to confirm if it's really theirs. What's wrong with that?! If it were others, people will keep already okay!! Shit.

2010-12-06T23:45:00.000-08:00

And there I go again, keyed a super big amount of $10,055 last night, Forgotten to staple that sale void together with my declare paper, hoping that my ears won't suffer tomorrow ): Luckily today's my off day. Cause it's Tuesday, teehees... Oh before I forgotten about it again. Always wanted to blog it out yet forgot every single time! See, Christmas is reaching, we're all wearing Christmas hat for work. You can say I'm very troublesome but definitely I'd rather buy a new hat to wear. Everyone's copying me! All go Watsons buy the same hat, KAO! No creativity -.- I mean my colleagues. Copy humans. This week's working hours are *puke puke* once again. But forget it no choice. I love working night shifts, earning for more allowance(: Speaking of allowance, just gave it to my parents and return sis money. Eh broke! Nah kidding not that fast. Just wanted to cap everything in S$300 till my next pay, including the money I gave my parents. But I doubt I can do it. Super upset. Guess what? I've got S$50+ for incentives, an additional money. Super happy la!!

2010-12-04T03:21:00.000-08:00

Feel like sleeping, seriously tired. Had my pay, intoxicated! Didn't really look into it actually. Hilarious stuff to report! I keyed an 8000 over dollars fruit/vegetable today. Gosh-ed. Luckily the customer wasn't shocked about it. Hmm a bit lazy to blog in detailed and it'll make this post look long so skipppp! Was about to buy a Himalaya shampoo for Sa's sister but her mom bought shampoo for the baby le ): Bought a few item(s) for myself too not a lot actually -.- Had been buying a lot of tibits nowadays. But never mind la cannot be bothered. Just hope that I could still wear my school uniform on the result day. Few days ago, there's a heavy downpour. Remember? NTUC was totally peaceful and quiet. Thanks to the rain, my jeans was wet. Was suppose to work from 5 to closing yet went home earlier for like 1 hour. Only for me(: Ok that's all for now I'm tired to go on.. Hope to meet up my dearest soon ): Miss them super much lor! Can't wait for our next outing. Hmm hope to get good results and meet up Miss Tan, Miss Guok etc :D OMG~!

Dearest Zhen Yao Brother, happy birthday to you(:

Heh glad to get my shift changed.

Able to attend tomorrow's celebration.

2010-11-30T05:03:00.000-08:00

Finally, my table is clean! But, my wardrobe starts to get messy again... I should keep it clean right now or else I'll have to pack EVERYTHING again which is like expected :D I'm really being forgetful. Left my water bottle at home today, didn't bring it to work. Was thinking "Shit! Have to waste money buy water already. See la!!". While working, SURPRISE! Guess what? My second sis delivered my water bottle for me and even bought me rice. It's super yummy and filled with love. Intoxicated! Conversely, my elder sis ate my maggie which I cooked before I go to work. Kns! But Dajie & Mummy came over to buy things together with Baby Tae(: Just nice, break time. Managed to check my schedule today, and realise I'm not free from work on Sunday. But I shall check around with my colleagues if they could change with me ):

2010-11-28T21:55:00.000-08:00

Oh, so what's the date today? It's not that I can hardly recall it's because i can't even remember what I've been doing these days other than work. Seriously! Had a very serious stm. Okay i don't know what I'm talking about at all. Other than work, I does go out but with family like of course~ Oh I remembered! On Friday, I went to Chinatown for some things and had Swensens 1-for-1 lunch. Had mahjong session in the night. Went AMK last night? Ok whatever. OH! There's something I need to mention as in I'm too excited for it so I thought of sharing.I received the Edusave Merit Bursary :D How great is it! This money is far better to earn as compared with work okay! So I hope I'll be getting good grades for my N's and promotes to sec5. Earn more money from school before i leave(: Clever right? 不拿白不拿. Anyway, I'm very looking forward to the day where we could take results. I'm really nervous about it. But I doubt I'll do well ); Off today so I'll be checking out my whole week's schedule tomorrow. Hoping that this Sunday I've got off as it's Zhen Yao Brother's birthday.

2010-11-22T19:40:00.000-08:00

So I'm back again. Thought of blogging as this week will be busy with the looooong hours work so I suppose I won't have much chance to surf net. Let's see. Yesterday's work was great as in my neighbor's counter was just next to me! But there's this stupid customer saying that i gave him Malaysia's 5cent which I'm pretty sure that I didn't gave it to him -.- But forget it luckily I got it balance last night. But I suppose this whole month will not get 50% balance. HAHA! Ok my blog is full of words with mentioned of my work work work. Boring? Yea definitely I'm not one who will upload photos. Troublesome! Let's just pray that later's work will be fine as it's Tuesday which spells trouble day. Why? Senior citizen day... OH before I've forgotten!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR CHARMAINE CHONG!! With much loves.

2010-11-21T03:25:00.000-08:00

Time for summary again...

Off on Friday, like always, went to Expo and Bedok's Sheng Siong. Bought quite a number of things. Like so finally bought new hand cream which is like within one day bought two. Waste money but forget it it's not very expensive. Affordable. Work on Saturday was fine. YAY balance! I didn't open my counter for one to two hours yet i could earn like $4000+ close to $5000. Once again, it's all because Winnie asked me to do things -.- Currently at cousin's house. Hmm haven't had my shower till now! I'm dirty haha. Okay here comes my main point. Next week's working schedule is totally like shit. Okay pardon me i know it's not very nice to say that but seriously it sucks especially tomorrow. One hour break again, working from 2pm to 10.20pm! Grrr..... How can i live with it? Okay whatever with work. Oh oh i can't wait for payday and another session of badminton ): Wanted to take up some lessons but i don't know what to learn...

Anyway, went to Singtel shop today. I'm kinda in love with XPERIA X10! Anyone wants to buy for me? Or a digital watch also can!! :D I guess i'm dreaming -.-

2010-11-17T06:21:00.000-08:00

Aloha my dear dairy!! Heh went to Tampines Central CC for badminton yesterday with cousin. How great is it! It's been long since i last touch racket and i'm like so noob -.- Wth!! My wrist doesn't has enough strength at all ): But it's ok i'm gonna go for more games and get back some of my skills :D Can't wait for another session. Super excited~ Today's work was great as it starts at 8am and Winnie asked me to help her do some things so i didn't stay at my counter the whole time! She praised me, not because i helped her but because i did well for my work. Heh she said i'm very automatic, unlike others, Sir Stanford Raffles Wife. LMAOS!!! I can't wait for tomorrow or rather friday. Ah whatever! As long as my off day is when, i just can't wait for that day! Cause that spells REST! I'm just so tired already. I can't wait for my results. Although i'm afraid i'll not do well and get abcdefg, but i'm still looking forward. I wants to wear my ugly uniform and go out, showing off my foolscape uni. Ok whatever the spelling is. Obviously, my english sucks expecially my sentence structure etc. BUT! I promise myself to study hard if i get promoted to sec5 next year. I SWEAR! I'm so gonna read The Straits Time daily. I don't wanna regret ):

2010-11-14T00:08:00.000-08:00

Oh! I'm super bored. Off from work today yet it's a rainy day today. You can never imagine. I hate to face computer cause everytime i online, i've got nothing better to do. Might as well spend my time packing things -.- Plan to go for a jog later, but i don't think there's a need already. Wasted my off day can!! Sunday. It's sunday and there's not much tv programmes ); Poor life... You must be suffering. Needed some entertainments. Can anyone tell me what can i do? Suggestions please! I need some games? Like those fighting games etc which will be fun and interesting. It's best if there's no need for me to download anything(:

2010-11-13T09:53:00.000-08:00

我又回来啦！Heh ok shall stop using chinese to blog for the moment. Cause it'll take up quite some time for me to jote down my thoughts and it's very troublesome! Anyway, i didn't intend to online but saw my sist using computer so..... Wanted to play facebook games but it doesn't seems to be loading at all! Grr but forget it perhaps it's meant to be(: Anyway i did mention that i'm working night shift today right? It isn't bad at all!! It's better as compared with few days ago as i at least managed to rest today. I'm the only girl whom work till the whole shop closes, as a cashier, with another 2 boys. Heh luckily i've got it balance today but unfortunately, not the two boys!! I've got a evil smile in my mind. Anyway, both of them are funny and i really enjoy my day at work today, like so finally. No unreasonable customers or should i say i can take it that's why i don't find myself having any troubles today(: IT'S GREAT~ Oh i personally likes night shift cause there's additional 60cents per hour, customers are not as much as it has during noon etc and i always had only like one meal per day which would help out in my slimming progress. Kidding i'm not on a diet right now. Had mac today, a slice of chocolate cake, pocky and 3 biscuit that dad bought yesterday during work. And i've just get up on the weighing scale, i'm 43.9 kg! Omg i can't believe this. Over-excitement. I shall weigh again tomorrow :D

Oh and i just saw Gina posted a link on facebook. It's about guzheng. Makes me feel like learning again ): I've not been touching my guzheng for months already and i'm missing it. That's because i kept it in the storeroom for the sake of Baby Tae. But go out and learn isn't cheap and it's of no use for my future at all!! But it's my passion!! What should i do?? ):

2010-11-12T09:19:00.000-08:00

哦！不知道有没有人发现我把上一个post给删除了。其实是因为我认为太无聊和长了。等我有时间在说吧。发现我为何突然用华文而不是英文了吧？哈哈其实是因为我刚下载，想式一式。还是回到生活吧！明天晚班，真是无聊。好想赶快拿回成绩单啊！我好想上学，好想上中五，好想努力的读好书别在后悔！有时候我真的很不明白自己在想什么。我明明很爱你但是就是很奇怪。重而言之，我至少知道自己能一个人生活。谁说女人一定需要男人养？女人当志强！至少先在的日子很好，一个人很自在不用怕这怕那（：

2010-10-30T04:37:00.000-07:00

So far, i've OT for 2 times, one hour each. Well, it's the pay day on 4th of every month, which means i'm getting pay next week :D Heh i'm so looking forward for my pay and get my POSB card done! Working schedule will be out tomorrow, but tomorrow is my OFF DAY!! I bet i'm so gonna live to the fullest for tomorrow's programme. Hope that i'm not working on next saturday so that i'm able to attend my uncle's house warming and go out with my cliques~! SUPER EXCITED. Oh ya i think i've left out something that i wanted to blog about. Eh not sure how long ago, went to watch Child's Eye with elder sist and her friends. Wow! Not really scary la but i somehow got shocked by my sist screamings. LOL! What i does was just kept on eating my finger food -.-

2010-10-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

It'd been ages since i last blog...

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SECOND SIS(:

Had oreo ice cream birthday cake from Swensens.

It's pretty nice, definitely nicer than the one i had on my birthday!

Get back to life. Started to work last saturday, it's pretty tiring yet manageable. My hands had always been ugly since the past and it's getting worst now. I don't care if it's rough but my skin.... ): It's like disaster. Luckily mom has quite a few hand cream and she gave it to me. Use it just now, find that it's pretty good!! My hands are filled with scars, very upset. The day before i start work, i went to DMK to buy my black covered shoe. Heh! It's totally the same design as my elder sist one. I remember there's quite a lot i wanted to blog BUT, i forgotten what is it again :D I'm still packing my notes, and it's been for weeks already. If i doesn't promotes to sec 5, there's a need for me to pass it to my friends to share it(: I'm missing my fellow classmates and close friends ): I wonder when could i meet up with them as well as the teachers. I wants to go church again!!! I can't really bring up my courage to text them. I'm afraid that they'll find me irritating. Sigh, hope to meet up soon.

Just wanted to share a little more about my job. I mean for my own sake(:
Blog is just a dairy which leaves me some memories about my past life. I just wanted to track down the life i had for the years i've live.
First and foremost, my colleagues are super friendly (most of them) which is very important... It's really not easy to earn money. There's so much to do ): I'm always afraid that i'll give customer too much or lesser change that they should receive. There's tons of procedure to meet up to. I hope i'm really able to do well and get balance every single time i work... Had 3 partners in total for the time being, i suppose the best one is Maz.

lastly, i don't really like people asking my schedules
I dislike people asking this & that obout my personal stuff -.-

2010-10-16T09:19:00.000-07:00

Well, not working as a operator at Flextronics anymore. Nothing to upset about just that i've no income, that's all. Nobody is to be blamed just that family dislike R and that causes me ending up rotting at home. Hah! It's not a bad idea though. Before i could even start work, i'm already like sick as i puke like a Merlion. Doctor even gave me 5 types of medicines and without fear, i took approximately 3 times and i stop taking it. Didn't even wanted to visit the doctor but i've to take precaution as there's still dnt paper if i'm not wrong... Now that i'm waiting for my house nearby NTUC to ring me up for work cause it's really convenient for me :D Sounds a bit aunty? Well that's work life i don't mind getting laughed!! Ok there's nothing for me to update. BYE!

2010-10-11T06:26:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, things just doesn't goes the way we wanted.

No matter how much we've tried, it'll still be the same?... Yea i suppose on certain matters.

I won't know, neither nor i can predict the outcomes.

But certainly, i hope things doesn't turns bad and goes wrong, ending up with a unhappy ending.

God bless, i really hope it's not gonna worsen or whatever shit.

I'm just too afraid....

Updated on 11.17pm again,

I can only blame myself for being too dumb, too naive.

I won't know when i'll wake but definitely i hope i'll be awake right now. I suppose?

Let's just pray then...

As long as i work hard enough, we'll all know it'll be paid off.

2010-10-07T04:40:00.000-07:00

Oh! Like so finally back to blog and online :D Well, N's exams are not easy nor very difficult. But obviously, i won't be able to ace it nor get good grades. After finishing all the papers excluding d&t, i felt so relax yet worried. I don't wish to fail, neither do i expect to get A's or good grades. I just expect something slightly better and i'll be able to go to somewhere i like, best is sec5. But whatever it is, it's already over. Days or weeks ago, took a lot of photos with cliques. Had fun like siaooooo!! Shall upload on blog when i feel like. Like so finally got photos to make my blog more lively!! Well i'm touche, nothing much i could recall of to blog. Bye!

Monster arrive!!

Some people are too scared that they've stop inviting me to view their blog.

LMAO!!

& I'll appreciate if you stop adding words into my mouth.

2010-09-30T02:50:00.000-07:00

I'm exhausted. Well, i suppose my chemistry notes are done. Had some doubts waiting to be cleared and revise several times will be alright i guess. Oh! Not forgetting to find out the laws for physics thingy. God, please bless me. The next few papers that's coming up are the important ones. I can't afford to fail nor get too low grades. If i don't do well for math, i'd better die. I don't want to disappoint peoples who had high hopes in me especially the three math teachers. Definitely, i need my english to be good enough(: Hardcore study eveyone!!!

Joke: Few days ago, i went to my school's canteen drink stall to get a drink after i was released like for one hour long already. Auntie asked me "Girl, why you just now don't want buy during recess?" and i gave her an o.o face. "Auntie, i release ready!" and guess what? She said "Haha i thought you sec2/3." Kao! Do i look that short? ):

work hard and we'll be able see good results,

not only improvements

if you don't put in effort,

you'll definitely got lesser chances to do well

2010-09-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

How much time do i left to study for my N's? I'm afraid to count, yet wanting to get over those counting. Sigh.

22 september

It's graduation day, and it really kills me. It's such a bad day, i didn't bring my spectacles to school. Roughly looked through the videos that was screened, i really enjoyed my life in Springfield despite those obstacles. Those class speech are really boring BUT, my class did a good one. Credits to Syafiq(: When everything ends, the skies started to darkened and there comes the rain. Gosh-ed totally wet!! Dinner settled at Pasir ris Just Acia. Overall, the food over there are pretty nice especially the ice cream.

Oh ya! Before i end this post. Done new blogskin which is the current one, it's right up to my taste. I mean i like it, heh(: Anyway, had my tagboard back as i'm a bit lazy to answer questions through formspring. But definitely, peoples! You could still ask me questions through formspring if you want but best through tagging. When you formspring me, i'll answer your questions over there and will no longer post it up here already.

2010-09-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

For the godness sake, i'd better update my blog before i pile up more and more things.
Last week, had the N's for mother tongue, ss and english. Was really so stressed up for my ss as i guess i did very badly. After N's are over (for that term), i went real insane as if everything's really finish, being in a total holiday mood. These days, went to Jurong point, Tampines mall etc. Had Jiaxiang Mian for dinner when i'm at Jurong point, the taste is getting very bad, not as nice as the one i ate before. Now that holidays are over, it's time for studies again. Finally, my baby Tae is asleep(: Had been hoaxing him since i'm home from school, and there's geography test tomorrow which i've yet to study. Grr!!

Oh ya i think i would like to post about the day i went out with MK, AE and AA. It's a total fun!! Before i went to meet them at whitesand's neoprint shop, i went to collect my phone like so finally. Obviously, we took neoprints and went to Xin Wang Cafe (spelling?) for our lunch cum dinner. Thanks MK for the treat!! Wow it's pretty nice and we're all like soooo FULL :D Skip skip, we cabbed to church. As usual, camwhoreeee. For that week, i took cab a lot of times. I'm like so super broke): Even now.

2010-09-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

To me, it's like i've not been updating for ages, i do not know what to start with. I've typed just a little things in around an hour or less and i started to get sick and frustrated of it. So i've decided to post it someday else when i'm on the cloud nine(: Just few things i want to add on before i end my post. Firstly, happy belated teacher's day although i'm a little late. But still, i sincerely wish every teachers a happy teacher's day. I miss Miss Tan CN. Now that she's gone to further her studies, i missed her so much and life without her are so boring! But never mind cause i know we'll meet up again soon. Secondly, Mrs Chee has left the school due to some sort of reasons? Yea i need to thanks her for being there whenever i need, giving me advices. Not forgetting that she passed me an envelope today during english lesson which contains oreos. Heh most of the guys especially Glen was like "so bias only give Shuyee never give us" HAHA!! And also, a name card(: I love her loads too. Thirdly, i just need to say that all teacher's day presents or so will be given when N's are over. Cause really have no time. I hope Miss Tan, Miss Guok, Miss Lee, likes the cookies i've made. Not forgetting those teachers whom received the cupcakes that akaliao did. I'm so happy!! :D

Formspring:

Anonymous: finally your phone is back

- Haha yea, finally my phone is back(:

i love my family, so does they.

i love my friends cause they love me too.
i love my teachers and my teachers love me too!

2010-08-27T10:15:00.000-07:00

Now that the time had past 12am, it means it's a brand new day. Alright! My phone is officially repairing for the 5th week. Although it might not be long, but to me, it seems to be like years. I've been using the "lkk" spare phone, dislike the buttons especially when typing message and i can't on whatever songs i want. Most important one, there's no internet -.- So now whenever people talk about phone, i'll just like so flare up. Anyway, the time now to the N's are very close and that means i've got lesser time to study. Oh god, can't you just like extend the time? I really have a lot more to study ): You know? I shall really do a super proper update when the N's are finished. I don't want to waste too much time on useless stuffs and especially on meaningless people and stuffs. Yea in short, cannot be bothered at all(:

Formspring:

Anonymous: Get well soon hor, my ah siao ar! (love shape)

- Aww so sweet. Haha ok i'll get well soon! So that i've more energy to fight the war :D

2010-08-24T04:32:00.000-07:00

I'm not happy with my results, i will work hard to the max to achieve what i want in N level!! It's really study time, no more playing anymore. Shameless woman, slap yourself. We're not a fool.

Formspring:

Anonymous: Must take good care of your body....

- haha thanks! I will(:

2010-08-23T07:02:00.000-07:00

Ok i think i've decided to post about some things that came through my mind that i've always feel like updating it yet i didn't. Cause i don't think i'll remember by then and it'll be like ages for me to update some funs.

14082010

In the noon, it was raining quite heavily. As i have a date, have no choice but to get AA and my breakfast cum lunch from house nearby mac. After buying it, walked to Tampines Safra's bus stop in the rain for the meet up. Took bus 5, headed to church to meet up MK. Besides from studying, snap snap, took some photos. As time's getting late, headed to Bugis with AA & AE. Took some neoprints, had dinner at "QQ mian" located just like beside the Bugis street? Home sweet home at around 11plus ba.

Today

After school, took cab to Sockhuey's house for mahjong session. This includes Theresa & Huimin. Had a lot of fun, too lazy to elaborate. Thanks Sock's mom for preparing the salad and salad sandwich for us. Thanks Ah Sa for sending me to the 291 bus stop after everything ends.

This week

It's gonna be an tiring week. Will be having one to one session with my dearest teacher tomorrow, might be going for some dates on cooking and whatsoever on Thursday. Saturday and Sunday will be out for some events too. Tiring! Ah whatever it is, this week will be an tiring week. Hope that i'll get better so that i'm able to bake some cookies for _______.

2010-08-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

Finally, seating arrangements and lessons are resumed. Got back 3 papers today, it's really badly done. But never mind at least i didn't did too badly. Chinese was a huge surprise. I got my "bao zhang du hou gan" for 35 marks. Ok whatever it is, overall was 66 ONLY!! For geography, i got 23/50. Although i didn't pass, but i did improve. As for math, although i'd mentally prepared for it, but still a bit zzz... Got 39/80 for paper one and 28/60 for paper two. That's it for me. I can even fail math, that's the end of my life! There's more to talk on daily life, but probably when i'm in better state? Ok it depends. Just took panadol, it doesn't helps at all. Still very uncomfortable ):

2010-08-20T09:39:00.000-07:00

Finally, prelims are officially over :D Hope my results ain't too bad, at least pass or don't fail too badly for those subjects that i've expected to fail. Cough cough here, sniff sniff there. Headache goes, sore throat came. -.-

Formspring:

Anonymous: hi . you love huimin right? ^^ hehex. gossip rocks

- haha hi. Yaya i love huimin a lot. haha. Gossip monger!!

Anonymous: We shall do this often(: Like 140810. Wait for me blog about it after friday :D

- haha yeah we shall do this often especially after N's. Well, i'll blog about it when i feel better i guess...

Charmaine: Haixx ... DEN AFTER YOUR N LEVELS ^0^. MY DS SPOILL TT.TT

- haha not so exaggerate la. It'll be fast, be patient (:

2010-08-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

Finally, got back chinese O level results. I've achieve an B3 and an M for my oral. Overall, it's like more than i expected. I just hope it could pass, i didn't know i could achieve a B. Well as for oral, didn't get D is a little disappointed. But well, it's alright(: I'm very satisfied with it already. Prelims are finally over, as in left with mother tongue listening. As for that, nothing to revise. Rest :D When i'm online, other than doing those stuffs that i usually does, i actually had a slight changes today. I played online web games. Haha was a bit crazy about it. Too boring. It's gonna be an tiring in the upcoming months or days. Shall really rest while i can, study when time is still with me. Goodnights ^^.

2010-08-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

:D A night of sleep, i'll definitely feel better. Oh my, exams are really shity, i guess i've flunk all of them. As for math, chemistry etc, i think it's game over. Seriously, obviously there's a lot more for me to study ): Must work extra harder! Today's chinese paper was URGH noisy :@ I don't think i'll do well for it either. In short, every of my exam is like shit! Tomorrow's dnt theory paper, it's even worst. Shall study tomorrow morning i guess? Well, i really need god to bless me. Not forgetting, O level chinese results will be out tomorrow at 10am. I'm a little nervous, i hope i didn't did too badly. If not, i gonna get slaughter. Ok getting out of this topic. I've cut bangs but not really nice uh. I actually got it done less than half a minute. And i'm down with terrible flu ): I'm like using a lot of tissues, and it's not even enough for me!! I can't stop sniffing when i'm going my exams. Ok get out of this, i'll update my fun next day :D Exam papers are just right in front of me, i can't stop talking about it and switch the topic to what's happening these days... Hip hip hurray!! No school on thursday, grandpa's 100th day, going to pay him respect :D

AND, GYMNASTIC ROCKS!! \m/ i love it. Woooooots

Anonymous: ILOVE14AUGUST2010! ♥ loves!

- I LOVE IT TOOOOOOO !!! LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

2010-08-15T05:27:00.000-07:00

I really wanted to post about some happy things that happened yesterday. But there's something that's bothering me, i can't post and express out how happy i am. Forget it. I know i'll get better after a night of sleep, a night of crying. How saddening and heartening can this be?? I can't even express how i really felt and everything, letting everyone treating me in this stupid way. Never mind, i did it willingly too. An additional one, i know i'm very stupid and idiot. I'm only in NA stream, not express nor JC student. I know about it, i know i'm idiot. SORRY !!!

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2010-08-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

I apologize for the second post as the previous post looks too long and wordy which makes me left with no choice to start with a new post. I've got something "great & nice" to share!! Haha. I'm sure those who read it will burst out of laughters. Here we go:

http://xiaodevil94.blogspot.com/

http://xiaodevil94-cute.blogspot.com/

Don't feel bad to laugh, don't feel bad to look at it. In the past, that's how i form my sentences and how i form the spellings when using computer. Laugh my super ass out. I SWEAR !! HAHAHAHAHA. Some people say it looks like ahlian typing or what in the past. I have no idea about it but that's just my standard in the past. Omg! If you were to talk to me in the past, i bet you'll need to take minutes to understand what i'm trying to say before you answer me :D

2010-08-13T06:36:00.001-07:00

It'd pass 3 days since the prelim started. So far, i think that my english and chinese paper 1 is writing sooo out of point. It's like i think i'm so gonna flunk it. As for english paper 2, i have no idea. I always doubt my ability of doing english papers cause my english standard is way to "high". For ss, well it's like i don't really know how to do the SBQ. Instead of leaving blanks or few stupid sentences on my paper, i decided to anyhow bomb answers :D Hehs. As for SEQ, hope it'll help to pull up my marks then. It's the longest answer i've wrote and the one i memorized most. Math paper 1 today was totally a failure. Great disappointment! I accidentally wrote 2 as 3. This is sooo shity and also instead of leaving blanks, i just anyhow do and write some answers in(: Geography section A i chosen Coasts, and i really forgotten how to do. All my sentence are very broken and no link. But it's better than nothing huh? Anyhow write anything laaaa!! Section B MIGHT be better i guess. God bless me, chemistry papers are on the next monday. Oh nooo this is bad. Never mind i'll get help from ________(: Too anonymous to share. Going to church and study tomorrow, air-conditioned room some more. That's so cool~~ Yea i'm so high and excited towards tomorrow's studying session. Love and misses! Anyway, something good to share. Finally, yesterday's the dateline for submission of dnt things. I'm so damn god happy can!! Finally can concentrate on revising, no need to stay back without having lunch or whatever already. Really got so high when submitted my works. Was rushing like mad as time was running out. Looking through the journal, the information in front was superb and behind was like huh?! Lousy.

i'm glad that we could make friends once again, talk to each other. That feeling's great!!

Formspring:

Anonymous: do you love huimin? HAHAHA

- No, i don't love her. hahah joke joke i know you're huimin !!

Anonymous: aafskhbhlfjkkbhawjklbjklbgfasjklbgsjklbgjklsragatg

- time to grow up.

Anonymous: What happened? (with the moodswings thing)

- Well people out there says i've moodswing and i happened to have some problems which saddens me, that's why i post it out of the anger.

Anonymous: Labels: I care for people, who care for me? Someone you love?

- Well, it's for people around me. As in friends, family etc.

Charmaine:JIAYOUUU. PRELIM ! HURRY FINISH SO CAN PLAY DS WITH MEE ^0^.

- Haha thanks Charmaine!! When prelim is over, i will play DS with you de. But for awhile only. As N levels are approaching.

@ ken, your question will be answered someday else and maybe also i'll be replying your question through messages or so(:

2010-08-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

To be exact, few more hours to prelims. I'm really getting nervous and afraid. What if i don't do well? Thanks to dnt. Dateline is just 1 day away, yes i guess so. I'm not done with my sketchbook. As usual, god bless me. I really need to work extra mile for my studies... Shall ask help from my fellow schoolmates(: Today, i'm really too exhausted and sick to explain everything. Shall just explain about my studies, explaining some things over here as no one will ever argue back with me. It's up to you to check it out. But if you don't, touche!

To Di, i really don't know what's going on. You kept on repeating the sentence, "You cheat my feeling", although i know you're just saying for fun. But there's always a limit. Keep repeating will only worsen things, and i'll get very irritated especially at this period of time. We always joke, and definitely the things i'm saying at facebook are jokes too. If you want to take it seriously, i have nothing to say then. Whatever i promise i've made, i'll definitely do it for you. Although i'm not those so in to believing some things, but definitely i don't want anyone to curse me especially my studies. You should have more faith or rather don't say that i'll fail and i can't get up to sec 5. If you really want end our relationship, it's ok, up to you then. In any situation, i always have no rights to say anything.

To all, if you want to say me moodswing or so, then whatever. I can't be bothered with it. Every anger that appears on me ain't true. If you want to look from another angle, that's up to you. Err not referring to the facebook, Justun post. It's about something else that everyone always say for nothing or rather who just said it, you should know yourself. To clarify, not Huimin also. Later she think too much. I'm idiot, i'm stupid, i'm brainless, or whatever shit. Cannot be bothered. Say all you want people. I'm tired of such life, explaining stuffs that ain't important. It's just humans comments, it's not gonna affect me. I'll just shut my fucking mouth up and cannot be bothered with other things anymore.

2010-08-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

Oh, i realized that my blog is getting bored. But never mind, i love it(:

Yesterday, had been making notes for Social Studies since noon. Hope prelim could be a easy one. Panic ): As for today, woke up in the early morning and prepare for school. Eh to be more specific, should be for dnt. Almost there, exclude journal. Lazy to finish up, sobs. God bless me seriously!! I still have a lot more to finish studying.

Formspring:

Yanhong: What i do again that made you angry sia im like innocent leh..

- A lot. Haha. Don't step innocent :D

Anonymous: What do you hate the most?

- People badmouthing behind one another, saying others without looking whether they themselves did that too.

Happy Birthday beloved SINGAPORE ♥

- To my beloved brother, Zijing. Jie never cheat your feelings hor!! I sumpah.

- To those who text me, sorry for not replying at times.

2010-08-07T03:55:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling much better(: Hmm if i'm not wrong, there's a lot of things that i wanna to post. School ends at 10.15am yesterday due to national day celebration. The celebration was awesome and the graduating classes are like mad, standing up for no reasons. They're so high!! Actually, i hope that i could be that high too. Something that's upset is that we wear school uniform. That's freaking bored. Why can't Springfield allow students to wear red and white like other school does? ): After dismissal, headed home to bath, meet mom at coffee shop for lunch, and dad drives me to school to meet Yvonne and Huimin for dnt course which starts at 2.30. Ok some lame things after that, went to 7-eleven for ice cream :D Actually i don't really like it. Headed back school, the trainers whom taught us the autodesk inventor thingy are friendly and nice!! During the lesson, actually found out that what they did, our students computer can't do it due to admin stuffs. But never mind skip the middle things, they helped me with my artefact's exploded view and some other stuffs. Cool la~ Work till 6 plus (i think around there), walked to school bbq pit which is located behind the canteen area. They've aleady started cooking and everything, and even ordered pizza. Whatever it is, as usual, WE cook it. Main chef ^^ Actually, i ate very little only BUT my stomach still protrudes out. Sadly, i ate only one chicken AND main point is i eat finish chicken wing, my drumstick dropped. Hell ass!! Halfway through the night, they tell ghost story and for no reasons, i cried. I mean errr i'll get nightmares la although i pretty like such stories. Can't forget that period of time where Yuxian fetch me to school as he scare me with such videos stuffs. Some people even purposely make me. But well, i gotta thanks those caring classmates who concern me. In order to calm myself down, Veronice and cliques on songs and i was like anyhow dancing madly while helping to fan Mr Koh. That's really funny cause i think my dance are like oh gosh. People who's there laughed at me. Nevertheless, i laugh at myself too... Getting late, took class photo and headed home with Derrick and Germaine arond 9plus to 10plus cause i'm too afraid. Thanks Germaine for sending me home!! Aww how sweet of her. Today, went out with mom, sists and Taevier in around 12 noon. Had mac for breakfast cum lunch, saw Yongzhao and Yanhong there. Haha i actually ignore them, so angry with Yanhong. Ok joking. Hmmm spend almost all of our time at the nursing room and only walk like for awhile around BHG and Kiddy Palace. Freaking angry and only enter Cotton On not even a minute. Waste my time. I could have use this time to study. Oh whatever~

Conclusion, actually i still enjoy myself especially yesterday. Prelims are just next week, i really gotta buck up and study. No more playing ): God bless me!! And and i actually have a ulcer and that's really painful. Shit this and not because of bbq then have ok!! It's been there for like 3 days or so.

Formspring:

Anonymous: What's your 感受和痛苦?

- Hmm how am i suppose to tell you ?

Anonymous: Not 没人 okayyyyy . GOT ME :D Charmaine .

- Aww thanks Charmaine(: Felt much better.

2010-08-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

当我感到最伤心, 最懊恼, 最低落的时候, 谁来安慰和关心我? 两个字, 没人.

我真的好累, 真的真的不想在哭了.

没人能了解我的感受和痛苦.

2010-08-04T07:20:00.000-07:00

Oral is over, don't think about it anymore. We can't change anything to it, just blame ourself for doing badly. Thanks Mr Wallace for treating us the two bottle of mineral water too. A hundred and millions of thanks to Yanhong for helping me to do my dnt autodesk. Without his help, i wonder where i'm stucked at right now. Sadly, had to attend for this friday's autodesk course and that's boring!! Time's running out, it won't stop just because of me ): And dad says my phone needs at least one or two week to be repaired. They sent my phone out to another country ):

Taevier's first month celebration family photo

Formspring:

Anonymous: When is the last time a guy makes your heart thumps?

- Many hours ago? Yea i guess so...

2010-08-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

It's time to take an hour break. Last saturday, went back to school for dnt and headed to Tm to study. Had breakfast cum lunch at T1's manpuku, i'm really far too hungry. Been complaining since morning :D After which, finally started to do math and bomb Miss Lee with lots of questions. That's the purpose of coming out to study isn't it? Time passes, walked around to look for Taevier's clothes. In the end, bought nothing -.- Had dinner at Pizza hut with Veronice, Huimin, Sockhuey, Azizzat, Hakim, Rauf, Yongzhao and Yanhong, Yanhong thinks he's superman, didn't eat. Shop around with the girls, took pictures etc. Ok i'm too lazy to describe, shall post picture when Veronice blog it, steal it! Sunday which was yesterday, Taevier's first month celebration. Nothing much actually and waste my effort for making up -.- I thought that we'll be able to take family photo and so i put on light makeup. Not until i say, they won't take photos wth! Shall post those pictures taken when my sister post it. Haha. Today, had stupid 2.4 running. Now, i'm like aching everywhere as i'm too old for it. 21 minute, not pass yet. Shit this stupid run. The rest of the day was nothing much. Lazy describe(: There'll be chinese N level oral tomorrow. This is so boring as i'm the last three person. Hell ass!! Ok too tired, all my rubbish talks comes out. Although i'm lazy to describe everything, but yet my post is long. LOLOL. Class bbq on this coming friday as planned, not cancelled. HOORAY !!~

2010-07-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

Today's awesome!! As usual, Huimin and some peoples just stare and ask me about my milo. My dad made it ok! Played chapteh (not sure of the spelling) in the early morning, i'm noob enough please. Beginner :D Was perspiring like mad. People who were there laughed at me like mad only. First 2 periods of dnt, bored. Math and chinese, superb. Had been drawing during these lessons, shall take a picture of it next time. Although it's not really nice, but honestly say i've put a lot of efforts in it. After school, went to do my dnt autodesk drawing. I mean i played and fool around before i start work(: Once again, didn't eat. Whatever! Well, someone do something that's almost similar to mine. Super angry!! But forget it. When Mr Chew arrived, he gave some of us pizza hut coupons. Free meal. Omg he is so good!...... Concentrating working, senior came halfway through, went outside gate to meet him. Theresa was there too~ These days, had been visiting the art room quite often. Like the atmosphere over there as everyone is soooo concentrative. My dnt autodesk is almost there!! Going to study tomorrow, shop for Taevier's clothes, maybe going to collect my phone, and maybe going to dnt ?? Hmm...

Learned a new sentence, "can i have a collection of your number?"

So in love in drawing!!

Happy birthday (:

2010-07-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored.. You know? I don't really have anything to update but i'm just spamming my blog with some nonsense posts. Needed some entertainments BUT sadded, my phone is not yet back. Wonder when will it be back ): Hope it can be repaired in time so that i could take photos on this coming sunday. Same old words, school is fine. Surprisingly, i managed to finish up my english essay today during lesson time. Omg! Don't feel like going to school tomorrow ): Tomorrow's lessons are bored. Haish. Nothing much to say, but bored. Really i have to study very hard!! People noticed that i were far too lazy to elaborate things :D
She says that she can sense jealousy in my words. Indeed, i was a little but definitely every words i typed is true. Best wishes! Cause i know it's best to let go than holding on. They also knows that my 100% were meant for someone else.

2010-07-28T03:07:00.000-07:00

No, i'm not playing online games or what. I'm just using computer for awhile while resting. Ok random starting. Today's lesson was pretty fine and dnt was super relaxing. I'm like doing nothing?! Ok once school bell rang, there i go rushing back home for some sort of reasons. Bath, walked to central park's nihonmura shop for buffet :D Weets i'm like so full right now and i can't get to bath. To add on, went with Huimin, Theresa, Jaslin, Yvonne, Sockhuey, Eric, Yongzhao, Samuel and Yanhong. FUN. Finally, can get to beat Yan Hong. Hmm next friday's class bbq is cancelled due to stupid prelims and everything. But having a mini celebration in the canteen anyway but nothing's gonna win bbq ): And i just weigh myself, 46.7kg. Wth !! I gonna catch up with my school work. Sighs. Anyway, thanks Diniy for saying that he'll get his retribution although i don't hate him.

it's just a lie, face the reality

i know i can live better than you

2010-07-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

Yippee!! MAYBE having nihonmura buffet tomorrow or so, class bbq on next friday, and baby Taevier's first month celebration this sunday. Yea eat~ These days, there's too much things that happened. I can't even recall any of them anymore. But definitely i know i missed my phone ): And lastly, i'm lacking behind...

loving you is my greatest wish. There's never a way to return

2010-07-24T22:01:00.000-07:00

Oh dear it's really bad for me to have the thoughts of using computer nowadays. Seriously, i should have study instead of online. Well anyway, i find that i'm weird nowadays. As in weird in eating disorderly. I just can't stop eating the whole day. Had KFC as dinner last night, ate 1 drumstick, 1 chicken wing, 1 thigh and 1 medium size whipped potato. I seriously can't imagine what my stomach contains. Although my aunt told me that i look slimmer yesterday, but i weigh myself and it's like 45.3kg right now?! Oh my. I'm having fast food these few days. I'm sure i'm getting freaking fatter, i swear! Anyway, i really don't know what should i blog about cause my life is like so boring. Next sunday, it's baby taevier's one month celebration. Hope that i can have fun, less homework to be completed or rather no work, and EAT !!! I'm so craving for food :P Anyway, dad and mom went to simei yesterday to get my phone repaired. Well, it's lucky as they say yesterday was the last day for warranty. I'm so gonna wait for like one week then can get back my phone. OH ):

Formspring:

Anonymous: Study is important, but healthy come first.

- Thanks. But if i keep on eating unhealthy food, i'm also unhealthy other than getting fat.

Anonymous: What's your inspiration?

- Errr sorry for delaying this question. I have no idea how to answer this question of yours.

2010-07-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

I guess i'm getting fatter and heavier ): Had been having four meals a day. Around 2 cups of milo and 2 to 3 pieces of bread every morning when i go to school. Urgh! Well, i'm so tired and a bit sick of making my artefact. Stayed back for dnt today straight after school, didn't even get to grab a bite. Actually, i could had finish my artefact by today but well, teacher(s) are too busy with others artefact so... I think i shall just finish them by monday. Thanks to dnt, my skin started to get so sensitive again -.- Forget it. Had been having unhealthy food these days, hope i won't gain weight or what so ever. Using a spare phone now as my phone is spoiled, really not comfortable with it.

2010-07-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

Finally, my dnt artefact is almost there!! Due to lack of time today, Mr Ang says that he'll help me to join every parts of my artefact tomorrow and i'll be able to do my presentation board. Like so finally! Well anyway, these days things had been happening unhappy things. After crying last night, i'm feeling much better. Phew~ Actually, i do have lots to post. I swear not craps. But i just couldn't recall what it is and this is not the very first time. Let me just try to recall it. Mr Hajiz and Mr Chew said that i'm a typical girl cause i got so frighten and shouted like hell when there's only slight scratches or so on my artefact. But well, of cause la!! I need to get an ideal grades or rather marks for my N level leh... And err this few days, had been learning quite a few new words during english lesson :D And i've got tons of homeworks to complete. Oh dear, i wonder if i can finish them in time ): Much more to say, but to lazy to type it out so be it. That's all(:

Formspring:

Anonymous: What happened? Cheer up.

- Hey, thanks. If i were to write, it's gonna be long(: Thanks for your concern.

2010-07-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

You know what? I'm greatly disappointed with you. I don't know what's got into you. It's like we've became strangers right now. I know i'm weird too. But whatever!! Tell me that i'm just being paranoid and thinking too much. If not, just say it at my face that i'm idiot and stupid for believeing you... Don't waste my time

2010-07-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

I'm not pretty bored, neither nor i have too much free time. I just need something that could keep me entertained so that i'll feel much more better. Today's not a very pleasant day exclude for listening(: Yea, i need to score higher for my listening so that i could have a better grade. People, please stop asking me about what happened today. It's nothing big, but i want to keep it to myself and i don't have the mood to talk about it. Sorry Mrs Yoong. I shouldn't had been so emotional today. I should had do better for my test today and i shouldn't cry over "some things". As what you say, no matter what, i've gone through lots of obstacles and you and i are sure that i can get through with my current problem (although you don't know what it is)... What's lunch for today again? Cup noodles with a cup of gulp from 7-eleven. I've been eating this for days or almost a week or so but i'm not bored of it. Went out to study with Yong Zhao and Yan Hong today after my listening ends. I didn't know that Yan Hong is a pretty irritating person!! Talk to him, can really vomit blood -.- Saw Joe afterwards, he sat down and somehowwww studied with us. Thanks to him for helping me to solve some math questions. You know? They say come out study but they didn't really study. And Yan Hong is clever enough to bring nothing for himself to study -.-|| When i reached home, i rested awhile. Dad stand outside of the door, asking where i've gone. Well of cause, i told him and what he said was that:"You better watch out. If you let me catch you going out and play what so ever, you'll get it from or what so ever." There i goes thinking why doesn't he trusts me. What's the use of studying hard and get out to study with friends and ask my friends for help? If my family don't even trust me, who's gonna trust me??

i live for no valid reasons. i live because i'm afraid that if i die, my parents can't get used to it in a short time and it's expensive for whatever funeral things. That's why i'm still living on now. I studied hard seems like it's because i'm just trying to fulfil someone's dream. Everything that i've did is not for myself... Sometimes i really wonder if they deserve my tears and i've soooo got enough of it. Once i give in, people will always wants be to give in to them. They're so calculative in small matters but when they need help, we still offer to help them and didn't calculate with them. Why ???? Is that my only way of living?

I know i'm not a good friend, good daughter, good girlf riend and everything. But i tried hard to change to a better person. But people don't appreciate it and take me for granted )':

2010-07-19T04:26:00.000-07:00

It's finally monday again. What my brain stuffed with was school. Had PE today, finally i'm sweating like hell once again. Weet captain ball :D Thanks to me, myself for packing up the wardrobe yesterday so that i could find where's my pe shorts. Had a hard time packing. Today, Mr Koh didn't came to school due to throat infection. Well thus, don't have study programme! Went out to 800+ with Huimin and Theresa for KFC. Thanks for accompanying me. Zinger burger meal is simply delicious. JUICY !! There's no changes in my daily routine hence it's that simple. Only that i didn't stay back for dnt today. Too tired(: Anyway, Miss Tan is leaving us on the 28 August. Miss her... Still thinking of what i should get for her but most importantly, it depends on whether i've got enough cash and i can be out to get something for her. Eh eh wanna get a new phone asap. My current phone's audio speaker or whatever shit is spoiled?! Didn't dare to tell my dad about it so i should keep in silence until i found an ideal phone i like, buy it, sell current phone, and tata~~ Anyway, finally tomorrow's listening. Hope it's successful and i don't have to retake my O level chinese. God bless me...

Formspring:

Damien, relinked you.

2010-07-17T06:50:00.001-07:00

Finally, i've got the chance to use computer. Had been busy with schoolworks nowadays. Have been staying back after school for dnt every single day since this wednesday. Even if it's saturday today, i had no valid excuses to ask myself not to attend the extra work time. Well, i guess i'm almost there, almost finishing(: Yesterday was my english oral. I'm too nervous and i really needed the ladies. It didn't turn out nice for my overall performance, which is what i expected. But well, i just need to pray that i won't flunk it and my papers will be better... My main point for today is that i've got a lot of injuries ): Well anyway, changed my blogskin and i can ensure that i'll not change it for the time being anymore! Shall end here and catch Ghost Whisperer, my favourite show and then sleep earlier for studying tomorrow.